Close to the Surface

It still hurts too much, doesn't it? I knew that yesterday's anniversary would remind me of things I wouldn't want to be reminded of, would bring back all of the sadness; but I was surprised at how much it still hurt, how close to the surface all of those feelings still were and how little it would take to set off another crying jag. I can only imagine -- no, actually, I cannot imagine -- how emotionally devastating it all is for someone who was actually directly affected by the attacks. I don't know if I could bear it.

One year down.